Wanting Home
By Citronella on Wednesday, August 27 2008, 23:05 - Permalink
I want to go home.
Not as in "I want to go back to France".
As in "I want to find myself in a safe and cozy place".
Even though I actually am in a safe and cozy place.
My instinctive reaction to trouble is to run from it to a safe and cozy place (which my minds translates into "I want to go home") where to hide and regain composure before facing it. Preferably long enough that said trouble has faded away, which can happen with problems such as social gatherings, but are highly unlikely with most other issues.
This is something I started experiencing when I was 13 and that this guy was making phone pranks at me (calling on my family home phone, right, because we did not have cell phones back then, remember), which for some odd teenage reason I did not want to tell my mom, until I found myself uttering at her, standing in the middle of the very living room of our very own apartment (well not so very own because I was technically too young to own anything and it was rented), that I wanted to go home.
So I am familiar with it.
I want to go home, I want to go home, I want to go home.
And this is not good.
Comments
I know how you feel. I really do.
You know, I always have that as well. When I feel sad, scared or lonely, even if I'm in my very own bedroom, the first thing I say is "I want to go home"
It's a really, really, really hideous feeling, and I hope it passes soon
I have that very same feeling at times. I've had that same feeling in my own home. I hope that you reach your safe place soon.
Oh you poor love. I do the very best all-enveloping hugs EVER.
*huuuuuug*
Alison, Amy and Amanda > (You were so close to commenting in alphabetical order!) Thanks. I had no idea it was such a common experience. I hope to get out of it soon...
Brennig > Thank you. It is a very good all-enveloping hug indeed!
I'm familiar with the feeling too, though my problem is wanting to stay home where it's safe and comfortable rather than actually facing whatever problem awaits me. I do hope you're feeling better now. And that you find many places that make you feel safe and happy.